little sunsrise

Happy birthday to me, gak kerasa udah menginjak umur ke 25, 25 tahun. Seperempat abad, quarter life. Dan pelan pelan kerasa ada bayangan hitam ngikutin dari belakang, ada beban yang kata orang sih namanya "quarter life crisis".

Pertanyaan yang selalu ada sekarang:
Who am i? What I want in my life? Am i good enough? Why I always gain some weight? Later I will become super fat. I dont like my skin condition. I am not smart enough. My skin look so dull. my boyfriend love me? Does he think I am pretty? Is it something I want in my life? Do i enjoying my life? What will I become in next 3 year? Am i good enough? Am i good enough in my career? Am i good enough in my life? Do i dissapoint people in my life? Are you happy tep? Did you finaly find your happines? How to apply make up naturally? How to draw the eyebrow? What is latest fashion trend? What is your passion? How to arrange my budget and pay all the bill? What kind of sport that i can do? Gym, yoga, or running? I need my quality sleep. I need to study. I need to travelling, I need to saving my money, I want to buy some asset, What kind of insurance that I need? Where is the mannual book of how to become an adult?