little sunsrise

2014 :
Working, Menteng, Commuter line, Bogor, Birthday, Nazar, Pain, Wrong medicine, Depressed, Relief, Work Interview, new job, move to medan.
Met Old Friends, Prapat Holiday, Getting sick, Hospital, cut hair short, and then you. i found you, i met you.

i still remember that scene, me, you, mint mojito, potato fries.

When you are falling in love, Sometimes your brain tells you that it will hurt. but you just have that urge to fall. 

last time i get too excited, i ended up fall and there's nothing left except the scar, and the blood. ah, i still remember the scene.

so, for everyone who ever read norwegian wood written by haruki murakami. which side are you? Naoko team, or Midori team? 

i supposed to be fun, smart and fearless woman, but then, shit happens.

Still everyday i think about you
I know for a fact thats not your problem,
But if you changed your mind, you''ll find me hanging out to the place, where the big blue sky collapse.

Setiap hari ( dan setiap malam) aku masih memikir kan mu.
Aku tau itu bukan urusan mu.
Tapi, kalau kau berubah pikiran, kau akan menemukan ku tetap di tempat yang sama.
Dimana langit biru telah runtuh.

i came between the doorstep and window.
i'll let you see the part of the world you haven't seen before
so take me by the hand. lets go!
since than i miss you everyday and everynight

i would say i'm sorry if i thought that it would change your mind.
but i know that this time, i've said too much. been too unkind.
i try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. i try and laugh about it

i have strange illness, and i self diagnose my self, the result is:

• i only like people i don't have chance with! 

A joker is a little fool who is different from everyone else.he's not a club,diamond, heart or spade. he's not an eight or a nine,king or a jack.he is an outsider.he is placed in the same pack as the other cards,but he does not belong there. he can be removed without anybody missing him.

i found this quote and instantly falling in love with it

" Immature people falling in love destroy each others freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature person in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sort of bondage. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness. (OSHO)

Gak perlu nahan orang yang mau pergi, jangan maksain bahagia kita dengan mengorbankan bahagia orang lain yang bukan ada pada kita. 

"You don't need to ask for it if they really want to stay"

lately, i'm despratly in love with goodbye my lover nya james blunt. entah kenapa semenjak tinggal di medan selalu feeling blue, jadi suka dengerin lagu sedih-sedih.

lirik favorite di goodbye my lover itu, im a dreamer, and when i wake, you can break my spirit, it's my dream you take.

semenjak disini, i am confuse dan lost. city that i admire so much, suddenly far from of my expected. i feel lost, i feel alone, i feel like a stranger in here. and i'm lonely.

i dump everything just to be in here, and when i'm here, i lost everything, i lost my friends, love. i start from zero in here. alone, all by my self try to grab everything, strugle alone.

Hari ini di stasiun kereta kita menangis bersama

"Berat bebanku
Meninggalkanmu, separuh napas jiwaku sirna."

Letting go doesnt mean you dont care about someone or something anymore.
It's just simply when you stop expecting someone or situation to be perfect, you'll apreciate more someone or something better.

I love you.
I love you.

I just cant control my expectation about you, you know it's not easy to me to control it.

And i'm sorry
Telah menjadi orang yang selalu tidak bisa menerima apa adanya.

" Bukan salahmu apa dayaku, mungkin benar cinta sejati, tak berpihak pada kita"

I'm letting you go
So we can learn to love each other again.

4 years We grow up together, cry together, laugh together and learn together.

I'm letting you go
Because

I love you hey A.R.
You are my downloaded who stop in 99%